The other night I was lying in bed fighting to find sleep and rest. With my eyes closed tight I started to think of the past and a life I had long ago. My parents came into view they were younger than when I last saw them, full of life and happy. Mom came up and gave me a hug and without a word made me feel as if all would be all right; for a moment my worries of the future were gone. Then from out of the mist Sara and Frank appeared. Frank slapped me on the back and smiled that smile of his, Sara hugged me and never spoke a word (unusual for her) but her eyes said it all. We all stood in silence, a communion of sorts as we basked in the glow of love we felt for one another.
As things do in this world the moment was soon over and once again I felt that old empty hole left in my life with them gone. To say I miss them is an understatement. I miss the old days when visiting family was easy and taken for granted.
One more thing I want to mention. In the mist just beyond my site I could feel them even if I could not see them; there was Aunt Ollie & Uncle Bill, Aunt Nalla & Uncle Guy, and all the other family I’ve lost that use to be so much a part of my life.
I can’t tell you what this all meant I can only tell you what I felt. I needed that moment and I wanted to write it down before it became just a memory.
Happy Mother’s Day, Mama. Thanks for all you gave and I feel like you’re still giving me.
I love you all; the one’s just beyond my sight behind this veil of life.
